Whatever I'll be will not be enough
I will search the earth for meaning
I will squander time and let you down
I am not perfect, but seek perfection.
I am not as moral as my persona
I am not as nice, thoughtful or loving.
I will never be satisfied with me
I will never love as strong as I do now
I won't ever be weaker as I was.
I lack the ambition to make it
I lack the aggression to rise up
I lack the foresight to know when.
I am a shadow of my potential
I am a cynic and lack knowledge
I am a product of modern living
Too educated to fit in
Not educated enough to understand why. I love the right people
I have pride in my ability to fight
I have learnt honour and humanity
I protect what I love unconditionally
I try and spare feelings before I act
I hug
I listen
I can advise
I can motivate
I can laugh
I can feel
I can hurt
I worry
I panic
I am human
Some humans make me sick
I can celebrate
I can be and can confuse
I love I love I love
I can be happy.
Thursday, 14 February 2013
Friday, 8 February 2013
seseme
Formidable and ensuing fables of life
gradually appease the senses
reactionary response to biased affiliates
our minds carnivorous foe
will end investigation
and close the open mind.
sailing away from oppressive stigma
burning inquisitive thoughts
shall suffer from the mind's failures
and all that is left is dead.
Open the magical, spacial and inevitable
feed from the spark which ensues.
gradually appease the senses
reactionary response to biased affiliates
our minds carnivorous foe
will end investigation
and close the open mind.
sailing away from oppressive stigma
burning inquisitive thoughts
shall suffer from the mind's failures
and all that is left is dead.
Open the magical, spacial and inevitable
feed from the spark which ensues.
The Beauty of disorder
life can only exist for a tenth of a thousandth of a percent of the life of the universe. Everything will eventually disintegrate into disorder and nothing will exist for ever.
The arrow of time means that nothing in the past will be the same in the future. The paradox principle means we cannot go back and change the past.
Psychologically speaking, this would be quite depressing and kind of upsetting. But I say this is magical. It means we are part of the glorious journey of the universe. We are made from the matter created by dead and dying stars billions of years in the past and our atoms will eventually be re-incarnated into thousands of beings, plants, rocks and matter spanning the entire universe.
Science and physics are beautiful.
The arrow of time means that nothing in the past will be the same in the future. The paradox principle means we cannot go back and change the past.
Psychologically speaking, this would be quite depressing and kind of upsetting. But I say this is magical. It means we are part of the glorious journey of the universe. We are made from the matter created by dead and dying stars billions of years in the past and our atoms will eventually be re-incarnated into thousands of beings, plants, rocks and matter spanning the entire universe.
Science and physics are beautiful.
Monday, 4 February 2013
Religion: a viewpoint
Religion.
My thoughts have changed over the years. I used to get angry with people who had faith, thought they were backward, unintelligent and delusional. I used to have real passion in being so against religion that i felt i was superior because i could see the real truth. I see it on twitter, the arguments between religious and nonreligious people, don’t get me wrong i enjoy an argument (i’m a history graduate) and am still no theist. I describe myself as an atheist on Facebook, but this is not strictly true. Re-reading Richard Dawkins i keep on reading this quote and realise i have to change my status:
“Let us remind ourselves of the terminology. A theist believes in a supernatural intelligence who, in addition to his main work of creating the universe in the first place, is still around to oversee and influence the subsequent fate of his initial creation. In many theistic belief systems, the deity is intimately involved in human affairs. He answers prayers; forgives or punishes sins; intervenes in the world by performing miracles; frets about good and bad deeds, and knows when we do them (or even think about doing them). A deist, too, believes in a supernatural intelligence, but one whose activities were confined to setting up the laws that govern the universe in the first place. The deist God never intervenes thereafter, and certainly has no specific interest in human affairs. Pantheists don't believe in a supernatural God at all, but use the word God as a non-supernatural synonym for Nature, or for the Universe, or for the lawfulness that governs its workings. Deists differ from theists in that their God does not answer prayers, is not interested in sins or confessions, does not read our thoughts and does not intervene with capricious miracles. Deists differ from pantheists in that the deist God is some kind of cosmic intelligence, rather than the pantheists metaphoric or poetic synonym for the laws of the universe. Pantheism is sexed-up atheism. Deism is watered-down theism.”
― Richard Dawkins, The God Delusion
I think according to this I’m a slightly diluted pantheist. I don’t use the word God, but use words like nature, order from chaos, chaos from order and physics both Quantum and theoretical to view my place in the universe. I love the beauty of the universe and the way that something as simple as warming up your hands means that you are in contact with all the electrons of the universe simultaneously. I am stardust and 90 odd percent of me is replaced over the course of my life, meaning that hardly anything remains of the me that tripped in a car park at 5 years old and split my head open on a car exhaust. Science is beautiful and full of wonder and for believers, so is religion. I don’t get angry anymore and realise the good that comes out of religion, but get increasingly frustrated at the so called “theists” using religion to be shitty to other people.
Positive Religious Aspects
Why I Hate some aspects of religion
Of course it is a reflection of humanity at this stage that the few can destroy the many, however, how anyone over the generations can kill/maim/hurt/torture/destroy/bully in the name of religion seriously misinterpreted their role.
It all comes down to this in my opinion. If we cannot respect and tolerate all beliefs and lifestyles which do not hurt others, then humanity is destined to destroy itself both inside and out.
My thoughts have changed over the years. I used to get angry with people who had faith, thought they were backward, unintelligent and delusional. I used to have real passion in being so against religion that i felt i was superior because i could see the real truth. I see it on twitter, the arguments between religious and nonreligious people, don’t get me wrong i enjoy an argument (i’m a history graduate) and am still no theist. I describe myself as an atheist on Facebook, but this is not strictly true. Re-reading Richard Dawkins i keep on reading this quote and realise i have to change my status:
“Let us remind ourselves of the terminology. A theist believes in a supernatural intelligence who, in addition to his main work of creating the universe in the first place, is still around to oversee and influence the subsequent fate of his initial creation. In many theistic belief systems, the deity is intimately involved in human affairs. He answers prayers; forgives or punishes sins; intervenes in the world by performing miracles; frets about good and bad deeds, and knows when we do them (or even think about doing them). A deist, too, believes in a supernatural intelligence, but one whose activities were confined to setting up the laws that govern the universe in the first place. The deist God never intervenes thereafter, and certainly has no specific interest in human affairs. Pantheists don't believe in a supernatural God at all, but use the word God as a non-supernatural synonym for Nature, or for the Universe, or for the lawfulness that governs its workings. Deists differ from theists in that their God does not answer prayers, is not interested in sins or confessions, does not read our thoughts and does not intervene with capricious miracles. Deists differ from pantheists in that the deist God is some kind of cosmic intelligence, rather than the pantheists metaphoric or poetic synonym for the laws of the universe. Pantheism is sexed-up atheism. Deism is watered-down theism.”
― Richard Dawkins, The God Delusion
I think according to this I’m a slightly diluted pantheist. I don’t use the word God, but use words like nature, order from chaos, chaos from order and physics both Quantum and theoretical to view my place in the universe. I love the beauty of the universe and the way that something as simple as warming up your hands means that you are in contact with all the electrons of the universe simultaneously. I am stardust and 90 odd percent of me is replaced over the course of my life, meaning that hardly anything remains of the me that tripped in a car park at 5 years old and split my head open on a car exhaust. Science is beautiful and full of wonder and for believers, so is religion. I don’t get angry anymore and realise the good that comes out of religion, but get increasingly frustrated at the so called “theists” using religion to be shitty to other people.
Positive Religious Aspects
- People need to group together for support, religion provides this in abundance.
- Charity - part of Muslim’s pay goes towards charity, Salvation Army, helps people suffering around the world Etc..
- Most religions promote peace, love harmony and respect.
- Tries to answer humanities most basic and important questions.
- In part provides a moral compass from which the laws of most countries have come from.
- Provides a comfort for the end of life in the form of an afterlife.
- Great architecture
- Inspired some historical greats (Ghandi, MLK,)
- Great artwork
Why I Hate some aspects of religion
- Millions of unnecessary tortures, deaths and suppression of any kind of opposite thought or teaching.
- Is still causing some of the deaths in Africa and around the world through not moving with the times (condom use).
- People misinterpret to cause pain and suffering to those different to themselves. (Not very new testament)
- Watches children die of poverty whilst hoarding Billions of pounds worth of riches gathering dust.
- People use the passages in the holy books to determine who is worthy and who is not whilst disregarding others. A very hypocritical example is Leviticus and Exodus. Watch this as it explains far better than i can. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DSXJzybEeJM
- Being anything other than Theist requires just as much as being anything else. Both sides should respect other people’s views.
- Using religion as an excuse not to save lives.
- Using religion to indoctrinate people/family let them make their own decision that is informed and their own choice.
- Making religion an enemy of science - they both try to answer the same questions.
- Different beliefs should be embraced not ostracised. How else can peace be achieved unless we respect others.
Of course it is a reflection of humanity at this stage that the few can destroy the many, however, how anyone over the generations can kill/maim/hurt/torture/destroy/bully in the name of religion seriously misinterpreted their role.
It all comes down to this in my opinion. If we cannot respect and tolerate all beliefs and lifestyles which do not hurt others, then humanity is destined to destroy itself both inside and out.
Sunday, 3 February 2013
My (exact) 100 word story
Nathan's faith had never wavered before, and now at the ultimate test he was lacking.
He lay staring at the words printed on his bible and felt his eyes water. The words that once comforted and caressed his belief were replaced by regrets. His anger at every wasted breath, his wayward daughter and his wife, Josephine, lost and unknowing of his fate. A body, diseased withered and shrivelled. A mind once sure now tired, laboured,
so heartily unsatisfied. A wasted sacrifice with no real love, connection or place in this world. His last breaths would be taken alone and scared.
He lay staring at the words printed on his bible and felt his eyes water. The words that once comforted and caressed his belief were replaced by regrets. His anger at every wasted breath, his wayward daughter and his wife, Josephine, lost and unknowing of his fate. A body, diseased withered and shrivelled. A mind once sure now tired, laboured,
so heartily unsatisfied. A wasted sacrifice with no real love, connection or place in this world. His last breaths would be taken alone and scared.
Thursday, 31 January 2013
Forever to struggle
An interpretation of silence
Reeks with noise so full
An interpretation of life
Reeks with solace and death
Fermenting the deep wells of the soul
Is an interpretation of impossibility.
Desire is short lived, whilst anguish remains
Forever encompassed in bubbles unbreakable
Minds evolved to quick to realise
The truelly important creole.
The modern survival of power and trade
Robs the imagination of wonder, light and space
Maybe one day we will evolve to see with real eyes
Feel with modest understanding
And think with free, peaceful resplendence.
Reeks with noise so full
An interpretation of life
Reeks with solace and death
Fermenting the deep wells of the soul
Is an interpretation of impossibility.
Desire is short lived, whilst anguish remains
Forever encompassed in bubbles unbreakable
Minds evolved to quick to realise
The truelly important creole.
The modern survival of power and trade
Robs the imagination of wonder, light and space
Maybe one day we will evolve to see with real eyes
Feel with modest understanding
And think with free, peaceful resplendence.
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
Why I can't just be happy volume1
Firstly, sorry for not writing for a while (for anyone enjoying my rumblings).
I have been thinking though, so expect future posts on money, power, religion and politics. I will not pull my punches anymore as I intend to air my opinions on a lot of important (or not) stuff. Some things you may agree upon, some you may not.
Been a little pissed off this week or so. Wanting to write but have shrunk into my safe place and became a recluse. I did however, enter myself into a writing competition from the readers digest. It is a 100 word story competition. Think I've done ok, and will post it up after the competition ends.
So, on to topic. Firstly, and pretty poignant at the moment, my career Erm... Choices for want of a better word. It would seem that I don't value most of the work I've done as particularly time well spent. For a couple of years I felt at home in a college, but then found out quite brutally that teaching was not the choice for me.
I enjoy helping people, but customer service in the retail sector really does just grind away at my patience to the point where it is now psychologically damaging
I need a job where I make a difference in people's lives, one which encompasses my skills. I enjoy writing, counselling, helping and making a difference. This is not easy.
I put great emphasis on these traits and if I can't do something which I can be proud to tell someone without feeling embarrassed or hypocritical, then this gets me down. I have issues with certain industries and this does limit my options
What I do is important and this is why I cannot rest in 'just a job'. I envy the people who do.
I have been thinking though, so expect future posts on money, power, religion and politics. I will not pull my punches anymore as I intend to air my opinions on a lot of important (or not) stuff. Some things you may agree upon, some you may not.
Been a little pissed off this week or so. Wanting to write but have shrunk into my safe place and became a recluse. I did however, enter myself into a writing competition from the readers digest. It is a 100 word story competition. Think I've done ok, and will post it up after the competition ends.
So, on to topic. Firstly, and pretty poignant at the moment, my career Erm... Choices for want of a better word. It would seem that I don't value most of the work I've done as particularly time well spent. For a couple of years I felt at home in a college, but then found out quite brutally that teaching was not the choice for me.
I enjoy helping people, but customer service in the retail sector really does just grind away at my patience to the point where it is now psychologically damaging
I need a job where I make a difference in people's lives, one which encompasses my skills. I enjoy writing, counselling, helping and making a difference. This is not easy.
I put great emphasis on these traits and if I can't do something which I can be proud to tell someone without feeling embarrassed or hypocritical, then this gets me down. I have issues with certain industries and this does limit my options
What I do is important and this is why I cannot rest in 'just a job'. I envy the people who do.
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