What its like (for me) being a depressed!

This is usually just between me and the therapist, but i may use this blog as a cathartic exercise as i cant get to the football so often.
Day to day is a struggle and a fight to get up and get going. It feels like if your life was a dimmer switch, you'd light the room but you would struggle to see exactly what was going on. Sometimes, the room is brightly lit, but before my medication took control I was fumbling around in the dark not caring where the switch was, never-mind looking to find it. Everything i used to enjoy was suppressed and i would go through the emotions of enjoying myself or being sociable or being nice to people. I've felt this way since i was 11 (23 years ago).
I changed when i got to secondary school, through a hell of a lot of bullying, piss taking, confusion, heartache and being let down by the very people i cared about. It effects you, i came from a relatively well off family, loving parents and unfortunately back then, no one recognised the symptoms of depression. Teachers, friends, parents and everyone else put me down as a "problem child" or "weirdo". Fact is i wasn't well, i was forcing and repressing my emotions till they either screwed up my consciousness or erupted in bursts of uncontrolled mayhem, depression or anger.
This has carried on until 2 & half years ago when i was diagnosed and treated. I'm still getting the hang of certain emotions and coming to terms with issues brought up and now suffering with anxiety just as much. But as my wife keeps telling me, i've gone from suicidal to anxious in 2 and a bit years so i suppose i'm improving. Hence this blog i suppose.